Saturday, March 28, 2009

What to do? What to do?

I want to succed in life.
I want to make all my dreams come true and also the things on my wish list.
I see in the world around me people succeding my friends, family and lover.
And I'm scared that I wont be able to do as well or as much.
I know it's bad to compare but I can't help it.
I want succed in everything that I want to do and to the limit but I know I wont be able to in everything but I want success in my life.
I've already achieved alot in the past and will in the future I just hope thats enough.
Cheers to the future.

P.S: I'm also not going to wish me life away either, I'm going to live it.


Wednesday, March 25, 2009

A quote of my life

"Okay, so, picture yourself standing in the ocean. Let’s say a baby wave moves you a bit, but you are still standing on your feet. Let’s add in maybe three more baby waves that force you to step a bit, but, you are still standing. Now, let’s add in a humongous mama wave. Humongous mama waves knock people down, this huge wave knocked you down. Now you’ve got sand in your suit and salt in your eyes…but you get up again, because you’re in the ocean, and it’s beautiful. The waves are not going to stop-but no matter what; you are going to enjoy them, no matter how large or small, no matter if they are knocking you to the ground or pushing you to the side. You love the ocean. Love birds, life is the ocean. The waves of life will never stop, but if you truly love the life you are living and the person you are spending your life with, you will take all different kinds of waves, because it’s worth it."

I found this quote on someone's blogger site.
I thought it was amazing that how true it is and I know I'm not going to stop, I wil take it all on and spend my life with the one i love.

He makes me smile My best friend

I miss it Scott when heisn't at school. We have the best and funniest times and lunch with each other and he looks after me when I'm having a bad day. As much as i love my friends they don't talk to me like Scott does. He has the ability to make me happy all the time.
I think this will be one of the struggles when Scott isn't at school anymore.
He's my best friend

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Friends who help

I spent the friday night with friends for a birthday. I wanted to have fun but i couldn't, I was so tense and worried for some reason and I couldn't put my finger on it. I didn't know why.
Doug could tell I was stressed, he knows me better than I know myself sometimes. I didn't feel right there, I was ready to go home I was about to call dad. But Doug talked to me and shared his drink with me as I hadn't brought any, he wanted to help me relax. Well actually I didn't know if I would be allowed to have any. I trust Doug completely I know he wouldn't hurt me in any way know matter how drunk I was or what I said when i was. The half a can of alchol didn't help that much so he gave me a drink for us share and he also had one fo him self. But I'd already drank the one we were meant to share so quickly that he didn't get any. I felt bad but he understand why. I did make me a bit more relaxed and when dad came I didn't want to go.
Friendships always get you over the hill even if it's just a mound.
xx my love for my friends will exist for ever

Message for me

Scott sent a beautiful message to me last night before i went to sleep.
"... I love you and i'm not going any where annalisa you will have me for ever! I want you!"
We were talking about next year.
I think i will post more text's that Scott's sends me i just love reading through them on a bed day.

An incident

He sitting there looking out the window looking past the zooming cars, the dry paddocks and the long horizon. If you didn't see his face, he'd look quiet peaceful but he wasn't. He had dark shadows under his eyes and his chin slightly down. He was frustrated and angry. He was more than that he look depressed. Like he was saying to himself that if one more thing happens he was going to blow, his eyes were ticking. Someone shouted at him and it all happened at once, he screamed and swore. And then he was off the bus. The crowd in shock.

Monday, March 16, 2009

The Real Situation

Me and Scott have been together for almost two years now which is very exciting. But he is finishing school next year and I will still have school for another more two years. We both want to stay together and we know its going to be challenging. We are willing to change and make sacrifices for each other. Which is great and all but we're not sure what we're going to do next.

He's not even sure what he wants to do next year or where he is going. Which makes in even harder to come up with plans.

I know most people think we are too young to know what true love is but we are in love with each other. We want to make our relationship work throughout next year and the years to come. We want to have a future together.
I'm willling to put my plans off till me and Scott can figure our lives out and he's willing to do that for me to if go to uni.
I'm yelling out to everyone if they have any ideas or comments please say or if they are in the same situation and what you did.

x x i love Scott

Talk of the Future

Can you believe it, it is already March over half way through the year it scares me so much. It scares me to tears. I always been a person where i thought everything would just sort of, sort through its self. But as i'm growing older I'm coming to terms that life isn't how you planned or evenhow you didn't plan.
Me and Scott i thought we were on the we're not on the plan anything plan. But it's all changing. I love most of it of course like planning future holidays and christmas' together which is all very exciting. But now we are sort of planning our lives after the end of this year. What i mean by "sort of" is that we've started to but when we start making a bit of progess we both get all blubery and fall into tears and saying i love you which is good and all. But i want to start full on saying stuff what we are going to do at the end of the end. I can't talk though cause i'm usually the one who gets all blubery first.

Saturday night my family and i had our tennis break up night. Corey took me home to get my camera which i had forgotten to bring. (Corey is a family friend). We started talking about oue relationships and he said that he was in the same situation the me and Scott will be in next year. It was good to know that there are people out there like us. I asked for some tips on how to get through the tough times. Corey said to keep in contact alot by texting and calling each other up and by seeing each other as much as we can. Although i sort of knew alot of these things it was good to find out they people really do, do this and work out. I know me and Scott will get through it. :)

Tonight on the phone to Scott I will try to talk about the future with him and also talk about it with him on the weekend.