Pushing Myself

I just got home from ballet. It was good and tiring. Very sleeply bad I still have to have a shower yet. Listening to Love Story right now. Beautiful song.

Scott wasn't at school today, I texted him about Jess and Pat breaking up. Ever since he's been very lovey dovey, I think he got a bit scared haha. He knows I'm not going to break up with him but he still asked, how funny and of course I said no. I swear he has said I love you in nearly every message since I told him. By the way Pat is Scott's cousin. I'm going to miss saying to Jess that we are cousins too. Ar well. Life has to keep going to but pain never leaves it just becomes less notable.

After ballet we do a fitness thing I'll call it Dance Workout for now. Lets hope it'll help me get rid of all the easter eggs I've eaten. Damn those big chocolate rabbits :)
Sandy the Workout coach pushed me with these things we did on the chair. I was proud because I done them with a straight legs. My knee wasn't too bad but it hurt holding the splits because I'm flat in splits, so I had to hold the leg up so my knee wasn't touching the bruises.
Overall I think I did pretty good. I missed the chats I have with the girls at dancing on the holidays. They are sisters oldest Kellie and youngest Alice.

Well I'm off to have a shower. I might write another post tonight, I'll see how tired I am.

Anna as always xx

The Greatest Love and Weekend

Well my little break with Scott is over for now.
I had the best time ever with him I think.
I came home today because I went shopping with mum and Hamish.

His sister, Lucy picked me up from the bus stop and it was a 15minute drive back to Scott's place. Lucy was down for holidays. Me and Lucy have never really got to speak and get to know each other so I thought the drive would have been a good as time as ever to talk.
I kept the talk casual for a couple of minutes then I got serious-ish. I told her that I'd been going out with her brother for alomost two years and I'd never had over 5 minute convo with her and that we hardly know each other. Then I went onto say that I would come up and visit her on the bus. She said this would be good.
To tell you the truth I've always thought she hated me cause I took her brother or something but maybe after all we can become friends.

When I got there Scott said he was going to jump in the shower so I'd have to wait even longer. I tried to read a book to kill time but I couldn't concentrate knowing that he was 10 steps away and naked. But finally he got out, I was waiting for him in his room on his bed. Scott came in with only a towel wrapped around his waist, so sexy. But I controlled myself and waited for him to come to me. And he did. He wore soft trackies and a blue singlet. His body was still wet.
He kissed me with full force but I didn't collapse like I usually would. We just had I missed you kisses, they weren't turn you on kisses, they were just I'm here now kisses. And I loved it. We done this 15minutes none stop until his whiskers started to itch me. :)
While we were kissing he only said two things-
-I love you
-Your beautiful


I love Scott


Then we said sorry to each other for being away from each other and the same moment we both hurt for a second, feeling the pain that we'd been feeling over the past two weeks all at once for being apart. The pain hurt a tear ran down my face he wipped it before it dropped.

We gave each other our presents I got Scott chocolate and a 007 Bond movie poster, he loved it. And I got chocy eggs off him and a couple of bunnies :)

You can imagine the next few hours..... :) Happy
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I slept in Scott's bed for a while, he held me so tight. This moment was totally perfect nothing could make it better.

I could have stayed there forever but I knew I couldn't.
While he was holding me I asked "Do you want me to leave?" Meaning go to my room.
Scott said seconds later "Never, never leave Anna"
I smiled and held him back.
Then he asked me to marry him as he usually does when the moment is perfect. I whispered yes in his ear, he kissed me on my forehead and his lips stayed there which could have been forever for all I knew.

The next day flowed the same we never let go of each other. We were so happy like excited happy. Happy, happy, happy.

In the afternoon we went on the shed roof to fix a leak. He didn't want me up there, he didn't want me to get hurt but I came back with you wouldn't let me get hurt.
I climbed onto the tank from a stool then he pulled me onto the roof with one arm so so sexy, strong.

I had my first kiss on a roof with him. With my love. My sunset. And my soft rain.

The Hopeful Break

I'm so tired I feel drained. I on holidays and I feel worse than I do when I'm and school. I haven't seen Scott in over a week. I miss him. And sadly I don't get to see him this easter weekend :(
But we're going to have our own little easter day together next week. With lots of eggs.
My family is having a big holiday bash with the whole family. Scary. But fun.
I'm sorry if I don't write any posts I'll be busy sun bathing in my bikini with sun cream of course :)
But don't worry I'll be thinking of you all and thinking up new posts.
I may surprise you all with a post but I also may not so just relax and have a good weekend.
We're going to my Nanna and Pa's holiday house which is next to the pub :) and a 30second walk to the river :) and 5minutes drive to the beach. Argh the worries of choosing where to go :)
I'll all happy now because I know I'll be kept busy and be able to forget about all my worries for the next couple of days. I'm not sure when I'm coming home yet it will be Monday at the earliest.
I know I wont be able to but I want to get a good night sleep and sleep in while I'm on my Easter break but I know that wont happen with my little cousins running around in the early, early mornings :(
Hey I'm to oldest girl cousin too!
I love to melt all the chocolate that I get and eat it with a spoon. Lets hope I don't get fat and add on 10kilos.

xx