Insecure?

I think I can get very insecure sometimes. I don't get all down now myself that badly but I do get scared about what other people are thinking about me and what Scott is thinking.

I don't know it's just sometimes I act really weird and the only word I can really describe it as is insecure. Like I didn't see Scott last weekend which was ok but now we're not seeing each other this weekend either, I get sorta scared. I hate it. I keep asking if I can come over anyway and silly stuff. And it annoys Scott. I don't mean to but I just do it. I've only started doing this in the last couple of months.

I've also been wanting kisses and cuddles and that more. It's like I need to feel Scott close to me again to feel safe and secure again. It's only been lately and I don't want to be like this anymore. I want to go back to normal. I know if I keep stressing about it I'm going to end up in a bad state of mind.

I've been getting angry at my self easily.

If Scott says a joke to me I've been taking it the wrong way which I wouldn't normally do. Sometimes I start crying. Then I few minutes later I'll be back to normal and then feel bad for making him think he upset me and that I let myself get that way.

It's also been happening in class sometimes with my mates.


I'm feel vulnerable.

Anna the Worried Again :(

i love you

"I love you, not for what you are, but for what i am when i am with you." Roy Croft



Scott makes me feel like i am a better person. He compliments me, calls me beautiful and he is always proud of me with what i do. I feel like a princess when i'm around him, i sparkle.